boyfromks
Damnit, Elliot, why'd you do it?
22 October 2003 9:06 A.M.
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I'm really fucking sad right now. Really fucking sad. I really liked Nirvana in high school, but I didn't cry when Kurt Cobain shot himself. I sit here this morning with tears rolling down my face after finding out the Elliot Smith killed himself yesterday. I always say that I want the music I make to be a cross of Elliot Smith and Belle and Sebastian, but I will never be as close to that as the real thing.

I never saw him in concert. The last SD show was sold out, he cancelled (of course), then re-scheduled later. He was supposed to play at the All Tomorrows Party in LA next month. I don't have tickets yet, but was thinking of paying the $80 to see both days of the show, rather than just Saturday, since he was playing on Sunday.

I guess he;d been acting erratic lately. Still on the hard stuff. I guess one never understands these things.

Thank you for making such beautiful music, Elliot. It pains me that you're gone.

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I'm going out sleepwalking
where mute memories start talking
the boss that couldn't help but hurt you
and the pretty thing he made desert you

I'm going out now like a baby
a na�ve unsatisfiable baby
grabbing onto whatever's around
for the soaring high or the crushing down
with hidden cracks that don't show
but that constantly just grow

I'm looking for the man that attacked me
while everybody was laughing at me
you beat it in me that part of you
but I'm gonna split us back in two
tired of living in a cloud
if you're gonna say shit now you'll do it out loud

it's 2:45 in the morning
and I'm putting myself on warning
for waking up in an unknown place
with a recollection you've half erased
looking for somebody's arms to
wave away past harms

I'm walking out on center circle
the both of you can just fade to black
I'm walking out on center circle
been pushed away and I'll never go back

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